I'd Scream

I'd Scream, By: J.E.Nobles, panel wall in Miami.  

This image is my second attempt at a painting done approximately 8 years ago.  To me it represents internal torment and beauty, we all struggle with these things I know, but while growing up I began to imagine I saw the world through rose colored glasses.  I believed that this was due to, truly, having stopped to smell those beautiful flowers far too often.  I went through a lot growing up, I am schizophrenic, and this painting was a point in life where things were the worst and would eventually be best.  I put a lot of stock into the notion that the arts somehow, among several other things, saved my life, and this painting has grown on me over the years in different ways.  Far from being classified as anything truly discernible, other than that of a scream ripped out of soul and put onto canvas, this painting is ambiguous to meaning.  It compels me to ask what are you, what is it that I painted.  Is it horror or a dream, a nightmare or beauty, or perhaps something in between.  There are images which can be seen, some were known to me while I painted others not really, but there is a quality to it that I can not shake.  It has prompted me to wonder if I could ever create something like this again, and sadly, as of now, I haven't.