Pessimistic, tending to see the worst aspect of things or believe that the worst will happen.
First thought of everything must be the worst situation in my mind .
Another synonyms for me could be gloomy,negative, downbeat and hopeless. 
In this picture, I made myself to blend with the background and also desaturated a bit.
Besides that, both side left and right, will have 2 illusions of me, 
which that reflect the struggle and desperate of myself which is not easily able to see.

 

 

Me, slowly fading out represent the how sadness and desperate of myself, and also have kind of like vanish effect.